A Moment of Truth

[Yours]

Aw thank you, *hugs back*.

[mangled_monkey]

I think I've gotten myself in over my head. For once, I don't really care anymore. It's making me happy. Tormented in some ways, but happy. I don't want to change it even if it is wrong.

[sweet satin lover]

I will miss my peeps here. :(

[Thorn]

I am still not over her even though I pretend to be. I no longer see anyone who knew about us, I only see people who thought she was my best friend. I still love her but she moved and long distance relationships never seem to work out so we didn't try. She was the one I was most intimate with and still is so far. I haven't dated since the end of last school year, because knowing it is not with her hurts too much.



:Now I will go cry and then zip it back up inside of me so no1 can tell

[kisstheviolets]

i don't know what the hell i'm doing. and i sometimes think i might not ever be happy, no matter where i go or what i do.

[Willowtree252]

someone told me this morning as I get ready to go tonight on a date that they are worried I am getting desensitized well y'all have no idea just how accurate that is cant imagine how that happed and truly I dont think anyone cares.

[JujuDeRoussie]

It is getting worse and worse... To the point where it depresses me so much just to think about it... But I can't help and think about it. This is weird. Not in a bad way, but weird in "I never thought I could think like that" way.
Add to that the mother...
I wish I could just erase my memory of everything and live far away from everything, and especially without any little memory. Bot the tiniest bit of informatiion. Blank state of mind would be great.

[Willowtree252]

I am a major fuck up and that is the only conclusion I can come up with.

[JujuDeRoussie]

I truly need to disappear, away, far away, far far away... from here, from the memories, from Her... from everything that is me.

[Yours]

I sooooo need to get laid.

[singgirl]

I keep telling everyone I'm working hard on my term paper. I haven't started it. I have 30 pages to write by Monday.

[Willowtree252]

This is me sending you lots of coffee. and no >>>>>>

[singgirl]

Haha Thank you, I need lots.

[writerfreak]

I miss her so much......why do I still love her?

writerfreak

[gorn]

I really love that Air Supply cheeseburger in the Wendy's commercial.

[writerfreak]

I have figured out that I never really did respect my roommate and do in fact completely dislike the stupid pilled-out bitch. Bordering on hate. I have also learned that no matter how many times I try to do the right thing it always gets thrown right in my face. And no matter how many times I try to tell myself to move on I can't. My moment of truth. Life sucks. It's in the owners manual. Get used to it, dumbass.

writerfreak

[CrazyTaraWitch]

No one really knows me in the place I consider home.

[umgaynow]

I've reached a point in my life where Christmas is more of an annoyance than an enjoyment

[sweet satin lover]

I wish I could just tell them to shut up, don't they realise how much they hurt me? Its my life,I have boobs and a butt and I am proud. I will never Look Like Paris Hilton and I don't want to look like Paris Hilton and be super skinny. I dn't want to have salad thrust down my throat every 2 seconds and if I hear one more person badger me to be thin "like your sisters" I am going to explode. After the year I have had what kind of cake I eat or if I have coffee with sugar in it doesn't matter to me, give me a break! I am never going to be super thin I have always been bigger than my sisters, its just my natural shape, its not like I over eat, if anything I eat less, I hardly ever have takeout, literally like about twice a year, I exercise alot- like 4 times today! I eat healthily, LOTS of Juices and fruit, veg, tuna,stuff like that. I don't often eat meat and I swim alot. My brother is way bigger than me go and hassle him instead! I am sick of hating my body and don't see why people make me think negative about it. I won't be young forever let me enjoy myself! Sorry Its just this is a truth that's been inside me for a while.I am going to be really self-concious at the Christmas dinner table...

[jay/wt4evr]

I think I already wrote it somewhere but can't remember where anyway I'm a soon-to-be-horse-trainer and I kinda learnt how to catch calfs with the rope just to be able to catch girls too!! (obviously catch their attention... )

[JujuDeRoussie]

I don't want to go to the Christmas Eve at my grandfather's. I don't want to see everybody. I love them. I ma sure I do. But I don't know them and they definitely don't know me. They know nothing about me, and see only the failures. They are going to ask me questions I know I should be able to answer, but I can't.Then I4ll be all uncomfortable and certainly hurt by some comments but they won't notice, or if they do they won't care.
During the famous unwrappage at midnight I will notice even more that they don't know me. And my dear cousin who is now 20 will still do the thing she did when we were 5, she will compare how many gifts we each had. It is not that it hurts me more than that, but the thing is that people offers me thing generally for my birthday and my christmas at christmas, and she always forgot that and say some hurting stuff. And then she will add "well I will have even more tomorrow at my other grandparents' place", remining me once again that I have only a half family.
It is not something that hurts me everyday but during family stuff, to not know my father bothers me.
I so don't want to go to the christmas' meal. But I will, just to make my grandfather happy who will think only of my well being and remind me of all the thing I have not done.
Don't like Christmas.

[jay/wt4evr]

I don't like it too when it's meant just to be a family meal or an occasion to show the jewelery
and about family that isn't Family most of my relatives don't know how old I am
my father often mistakes my birth date
I hate my father's mother and sister and brother
but still I think I'm a good person
understatemnet of the year I'm crazy

[sweet satin lover]

Why does everything have to be about weight, everday I get hassled about it and I am sick of it. I hate my body and am becoming very depressed over it. I wish I could just be skinny to shut them all up. Why did he have to show me up like that in ront of my sister? I only wanted one biscuit. I hardly ever eat them anyway. I am sick of being so self concious and walking on eggshells all the time. I have been crying for most of the day and am feeling very very negative. No wonder my sister had annorexia...but I know if I got liek that I wouldn't be heppy, why is a woman's happiness measured by waht she weighs and why is it a doible stabndard for men? My brother can eat and eat and eat and they are all like "Have more have more" and I hardly eat anuything and they are like "That's enough!" I am NOT a pig and I am sick of being treated like a child!

[littlewicca]

Im just tired about my friends, it is always the same, we never do what I want to, and is like my opinion does not count, im tired to sick of it, i was fine and they made me upset. The truth is lately I dont feel her my friend now with my cousin yes but not my other friend.

[gorn]

The expiration date on these cheetos says "Dec 18" ... but I'm going to eat them anyway.

[jay/wt4evr]

I gave my freind a pressie that she wanted very much, but I didn't know it I just picked it out randomly

[Emms]

I'm getting puppies (yes folks, that's puppies, plural) but we're not allowed dogs where we live so we're going to hide them and hope no one notices until we can save enough to move.

[LestatDraconus]

Since I can say things here I wouldn't to anyone else, lest I die of embarrassment and my relatives die of shock, I will say it here.

My sexuality has always been pretty normal, I'm a male so I'm heterosexual. I like women, they don't like me. But in the last year I've become more and more disgusted with my body so much so that I can't seem to care about life or anything I used to feel good about. The only things I have in my life, that I take enjoyment of anyway, is my PS2 and the Kitten Board.

But today, funnily enough exactly one year since my Grandmother passed away, I think I know why it's all been odd. I feel now more so than ever that I should of been born a woman. Being a male, I have to be tough, can't feel, can't be too smart lest I be mocked, can't have male friends to cuddle up to when I feel awful. Now I know it's all wrong. I told my mother but it feels like a false victory.

I should have been born a woman. I feels liberating to say it or should I say, type it here. And I can never have the surgery because I was "gifted" with a big bone structure, and I look very much so like a man. So yeah. Big weight is off my chest.

[Willowtree252]

One of our kittens is very sick and in the hospital she is one of my closes friends and I am so worried about her I wish I could catch a plane and go to her but I cant I feel helpless thank god I am on the list to be notified of her condition. please pray that she will
ok she is my kindred spirit.

[MsKittyB]

I can relate, open up, and feel more comforable to people online than in my life.

One of our kittens is very sick and in the hospital she is one of my closes friends and I am so worried about her I wish I could catch a plane and go to her but I cant I feel helpless thank god I am on the list to be notified of her condition. please pray that she will
ok she is my kindred spirit.

My prayers to her. I hope she gets better.