The Crappy Feelings Thread (HOTLINES in first post)

[Sandman78]

Whatever blew into town sent my allergies into overdrive...I hate sinus headaches!!!

[JujuDeRoussie]

I'm not in the USA anymore :( I miss my dear friend. I'm glad to be home, I'm delighted to talk to my SNBs and other friends, but I miss the USA

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I haven't seen my best friend in almost two weeks. She's one of only two real friends I have left here, the others being off at college or a couple still in high school but too difficult to see often for various reasons, and I really wanted to talk to her this last week, but each time I tried to reach her, her cell was off. I heard from her roommate that she was going crazy studying so I figured she just didn't have any free time; then I heard that she was hanging out with people yesterday and I was a little jealous. I didn't mean to but I let it show, and thus hurt her feelings so now I feel guilty. And I still miss her.

[jay/wt4evr]

I just lost to my damned pc the whole 30mb of fiction archive, all my works, completed and in progress and more or less 30mb of other things. DAMNIT

[JujuDeRoussie]

I didn't get the results from the first semester, I still don't know and since I4m borderline, I wish I knew. I'm going insane from not knowing.

[kellah]

It's over. 3 years gone. Through all this torment he put me through, I tried, and his last words were "why were you such a bitch?". He hid drugs from me, almost killed us both in a car crash, disappeared for days without any word, and that's all he thinks of me. I feel like utter shit, why do I let myself go through this with everyone? Why do I feel the need to save people all the damn time? I'm such a doormat.

I wish she was here to give me a hug...I'm so confused. I feel like the last 3 years was one big mistake. He betrayed me, and I've betrayed how I really feel.

She's all I've thought about for the last 8 months...

[hondos]

I'm feeling very disconnected today for some reason. Almost like I have lost something or perhaps someone.I can single it out but I am acting manic and that is scarry to me. Something has to change soon or I may snap and fall apart. I need to get laid. That will fix it.LOL LOL ..only not.

[Trom DeGrey]

I don't know that this is a crappy, but I'm certainly annoyed. I need to re-cert my healthcare CPR and my local YMCA is giving me the runaround. Put in a call to a friend that I know is teaching the class at a Y about a 45 minute drive away to see if I can get into her class. Grrrrr.....

[Dorothy]

Why does EVERYONE who I ask for help tell me to live in the present and not to whine about my rotten past.
How can I live in the now if the past comes back every night, every time anything happens, positive or negative, everytime I'm something other than completely numb? How can I "forget about" things that wrecked me for decades? They expect me to do it on my own and in the blink of an eye and I can't

I don't wannabe whiny and weak, but I can't change in an instant and I can't keep the memories out.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

*hug for Dorothy*
I recommend therapy, it can help a lot, especially when there's no one in your life you can talk to.

OT: My eyes are really itchy and my back is *extremely* sore.

[JujuDeRoussie]

I failed... Now gotta wait for June for the second session. Feeling pretty dumb now.

ETA: the funny part about my failure? Well beside the phonetics, it is French that made me fail.

[gorn]

Oh, I wish it was Thursday ...

[Dorothy]

*hug for Dorothy*
I recommend therapy, it can help a lot, especially when there's no one in your life you can talk to.

My last therapist sent me away saying I didn't gain anything from her help because she didn't see me getting better, only more sad.
(strange thing isn't it, when you let down your defences instead of playing brave and strong all the time, that you appear to become more sad instead of relieved at first)
anyway, kinda haven't found a new one that can help me yet, am searching I swear.

OT: my bestest friend is angry that I took my other bestest friend to the theatre, but driend one had an appointment today so she couldn't... and now she's angry I went with the other cause her appointment was canceled... I shouldve let her know I was going with the other friend so she couldve come too but I didn't because I was still under the ipression that she had that appointment, I don't know her agenda ya know... but it still is my fault somehow because I said I wouldn't go to the theatre if I had to go alone... well first; I didnt have to go alone cause friend 2 had the day off and second; if friend 1 had called me that her appointent had been canceled I would've gone too because I wouldn´t have to go alone then either...
still it´s blamed on me and I feel extremely crappy and alone now, those two girls are among the best things in my life at this moment, don´t wanna lose either of them.

[LesbianJedi87]

i love how my ex before my previous relationship just pops up out of no where wanting dating advice. wtf. i'm the wrong person to ask considering I wasted 3 years of my life trying to get what was unattainable the ENTIRE time.

fuck i don't want this before bed. I just wanted to be a fag and watch Twilight.

[JujuDeRoussie]

I hate Saturdays... Most of the time they're synonym of drunkenness, fights and hurting words. I had kinda forgotten it could be like that. I forget easily.
She's depressed and drunk, oh Joy...

I hate Saturdays.

[Dorothy]

awww, next two saturdays you're gonna love, I'll make sure you'll love em ok?

OT
I completely, totally, utterly hate myself.
again... no... still

[CrazyTaraWitch]

My nose is really stuffed up and I fear I'm getting sick :(

[Trom DeGrey]

Headache. Again. Living in a large valley in early spring really sucks.

[Dorothy]

I feel fucking worthless

I only feel ok when I'm doing stuff for others that they take for granted or do kinda respect me for but aren't overly gratefull. But now I'm trying to cut that out (the constantly being a slave to every available person) I feel like crap all the fucking time. I can't think of any other way to make myself feel good. I feel like I'm not even worth listening to unless I've done the other person some mayor favor lately... and even then I feel like I'm taking up too much time.

I could grab a bottle of wine and forget it for an hour or so, but then I'd feel bad afterwards (for abusing alcohol)

Life really sux. What the fuck am I supposed to do to make the selfloathing, anger and emptiness that haunt me 23 hours and 55 minutes a day go away.

I fucking hate life

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I won't have internet for a couple more days :(
Also, my new apartment smells.

[love_2003]

I'm feeling really crappy and it is all my fault. I just spent the last 4hours playing computer internet games when I should have been working on my paper. The paper is due tomorrow at 2:30pm and I only have typed up my cover page. I hate being such a procrastinator. I can either stay up really late and finish it or go to bed now and get up early to finish it.

[Dorothy]

procrastination must be highly transferrable, it's gotten to me too and Amber also seems to suffer from it LoL

OT; very hungry, but about to fix that

[Trom DeGrey]

I have a rib out of place and my back is aching, and I can't get in to see my chiropractor.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

My back aches, I'm constantly thirsty, my sister's in a bad mood, my eyes itch, and I haven't talked to my friend in days.

[JujuDeRoussie]

we had an absolutely horrible exam subject in Linguistics with way too much things to do in the time we had. It got me so upset that once I was out I threw my bag away and I cried out of anger.
The other groups who are lucky enough to have another teacher got a doable exam, so we'll end up being the worst group and it won't even be our fault.

[LesbianJedi87]

i have the flu :( thank god it's the weekend and I can spend the entire time in bed....

[Willowtree252]

I knew there was a chance of losing my CDL with my eyes and it has happend we were held to Higher standard. I have been stripped of my CDL license. They did give me a regular license though but that does not help my heart I cried most of the day. I know I have a Office job but still dammit it hurts. Never again will I have the option to do the job I was best At.

[Foomatic]

I hate it when my spouse acts like a fucking drunk MORON in front of friends. Goddamn.

[JustSkipIt]

We can't find the box of Sentinel (heart worm medication for dogs) in the pantry. We got a new box (12 doses) last month which is like $110. And now we can't find it. Most likely it fell off the shelf and into the garbage and is gone. So we need to spend another $110 and order more (which you shouldn't be able to do since it's prescription) and give it to the dogs late. Crap.

[Zooeys_Bridge]

Coming to an end of my third year at a super gay college, I still can't manage to find anyone. Having to wait 45 minutes without pants in the gyno office this morning didn't appease my sense of peace with the Fates.