Alcy – Ok. I’ll be waiting on the feedback beyond DIBS. Well done though.
Now responding…
I’ve done that before where I dibs and then never get to the feedback. You’re not annoying though. Not at all.
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Firstly, let me pause for a moment while I ball my eyes out!
Excellent. Enjoy.
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I didn’t quite realise from previous chapters that Dawn was such a little shit. I can’t say I have too much trouble accepting that however. She was horrible on the show and she’s only either been dead or quite horrible in my fics too. ‘Working it Out’ is the only fic where I have actually enjoyed her character.
I’m glad you’ve enjoyed her in WiO. I have mixed feeilngs about her in canon. Like she was kind of created and just left there to be in the way and not developed very well. There were parts in that later season where she was kind of cool but mostly she was just a plot device. Here she’s … not very nice and not very good and you haven’t really seen the full extent of her shittiness yet. But in most of my fics… Turned – non entity, Two Days – non entity, Y’all – non entity, Paths – pretty alright both as Dawn and as Michelle, SAI – non entity, School Days – pretty ok until she’s a little shit for a few hours, Waiting – well. She’s a kleptomaniac turned marked servant but she’s pretty alright at that. Menorah – non entity. Any I’m forgetting? I guess I don’t use her well or often. Wow, like you cared that much.
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And we have another kiss, also cut short but you can’t tell me Rose didn’t enjoy that!
Rose definitely enjoyed it. We’re moving closer to a point that Rose and Mac will both be more open with their feelings and attractions.
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The plot is thickening about what went wrong between Willow and Tara. Obviously someone has falsely accused Willow of something…supposedly with Dawn, or Dawn has become pissed off at Willow and told tales about something that never happened. How awful. But I am seriously interested to find out why or how Tara would believe anyone else’s word over Willow’s. Intrigued.
Yes and yes and your final question is, to me, the point I’ve been most worried about people calling bullshit over. Honestly, I hope that as the next chapter unfolds, Tara’s level of hurt and susceptibility to lies and machinations will be credible. I also think that the affect her father’s death and the time spent traveling, realizing she may never see her family again, and exhaustion from being away from Willow – you have to consider all that in assessing whether her reactions are reasonable.
Zampsa1975 – Thanks so much. We’ll see but you’ve made a pretty good guess of it.
taranwillow4ever - Yes to angst. I think the next chapter is the most angsty in the entire thing so hold on for that. Thanks for reading and writing.
ophelia11 – I totally get the feedback in shifts thing when you’re behind on a story. I’m glad you’re enjoying grand-me. Someone else felt like Rose’s relationship with grand-me was a bit on the pathetic side but I just think Rose is pretty driven and obsessed and grand-me lets her be just that while still throwing in some suggestions to get laid once in a while (not in those words).
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On to Maclay. She intrigues me. I’m sure if I was reading actual tabloid articles about her, I’d want to slap some sense in to her. However, in this story she’s a diamond in the rough.
Agreed. I think that my personal feelings about her have certainly softened as I’ve been working on this. And she’s definitely a person who’s been damaged by the loss of her mother and sister and the way she’s been raised. I could see her as a person who’s going to be a “screw-up” because it will show how little she cares when the truth is she’s totally vulnerable. And her sexual escapades are a good way to avoid taking a chance on getting hurt. You know? She doesn’t put her self out there.
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I like Tip the character and her interactions with Maclay, but I wonder if their friendship has prevented them both from growing up a bit.
Interesting question. Honestly, the Tip character started out as Faith but I couldn’t really do the past/present thing with Faith and bring her into the now. Does that make sense?
I think the first encounter between Rose and Mac is a big challenge for both of them Rose is pretty much obsessed with her quest and with justice for more reasons than one. And Mac really cares only about bedding the least likely candidate. I can promise that will all change and hope it’s believable when it happens.
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Will Maclay go against her family to win the trust and heart of Rose?
Will Rose look beyond past injustices and the Willingham name to see the real Maclay?
Will things get good only for Rose to learn of the bet?
Lol.
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Yep. 20ish. I've been on a roll the last few weeks. I have about 3 more to write before I'm finished.
Wow I cant’ wait.
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BTW...I still haven't read the last update, partly because I'm trying to savor it and partly because I'll be really anxious if I have to go a whole week till I know what happens next. The Ethan plot continues to thicken and I just know he did something horrible and manipulative in Philadelphia and I'm not quite ready to deal with that yet.
New York but yes. Read it!
I like your take on W/T tragedy being necessary for Mac & Rose.
Anne – Thanks for that. I’m glad you’re absorbed by it. And yes, the events of this W/T story are not nearly so rosy as those in the original story. Sorry for that but also glad that it’s drawing your reaction.
Yes to how Dawn got her 10% and Ethan… It’s hard to describe how I feel about him (his being a fictional construct). He decided on a set of things he wanted to possess years ago: Money, the post office, land, success, and Tara and he’s designed quite an extensive plan to gain just those possessions.
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Looking forward to more. I think you said you had one more update - it seems like there's a lot to resolve in just one, but if anyone can do it, you can.
Two actually. I hope it seems believable when you read it. Thanks for your confidence.
Willowtree252 – Hey there and welcome. I’m glad you’re heartbroken over the story even if it is a rotten way to feel. It means this story is striking you and I like that. Thanks so much.
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Story Title – Love comes to Long Lick Revisited
Chapter – 10 – The Break – Part II
Chapter Rating – PG
Author, Pairing, Feedback, Spoilers, Distribution, Disclaimer – see chapter 1.
Mac wiped a tear from her eye. “So Tara never read that?”
Rose shook her head. “Not that one. Not the fifty more Willow wrote and delivered every day. Every one of them was sent right back with Tara’s handwriting ‘return to sender’ across the envelopes.”
Mac scrolled the mouse looking at the document link numbering scheme. “I can’t see reading more of those. How about this?”
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May 10, 1881
Dear Miss Calendar,
My heart is broken in a hundred tiny pieces and I must tell you the whole. Please write me care of Mrs. Richard Wilkins, Sunnydale, CA as I will be staying with my dear friend Cordelia until I can secure other respectable lodging or return home to stay.
I do not even know how to tell you this tale or how to live through the pain of it again.
We returned on the 5th as I explained in my last missive, Mr. Rayne having taken great care to return me quickly to the arms of my love. Oh how I can’t believe I cared so much and so foolishly for that comfort. False comfort it would have been. In Sunnydale we transferred to Mr. Rayne’s team and wagon directly, his having sent word ahead to his staff to ready them at the exact hour, and he drove me out to my home with Willow. My former home with Willow. How he could deal with a woman in my state of sadness and exhaustion I do not know but he seemed buyoyed by our arrival in Sunnydale.
The cabin was dark when we arrived and I thanked my escort profusely for delivering me at the late hour. I refused to allow him to accompany me to the porch as I feared the state of the house with my absence of months but he insisted that he would wait in the coach until a signal from me that I had arrived safely or some time had passed. Oh, how grateful I am now for his patience and thoughtfulness.
I slipped open the door as quietly as I could, wanting to avoid waking Willow but desiring to slip between the covers and wrap myself into her. She was sleeping half-sprawled on the bed, in… a private condition shall I say, as I’ve, quite honestly seen her many times. And I took two more steps into the cabin before my eyes registered what they were seeing. For in the bed with her, arm slung along Willow’s back was Dawn Summers in quite the same indelicate state. I gasped and covered my mouth for shock but could not control my body which quite slid to the floor, so unable was I to comprehend my vision. It could not have been a worse thing to do for Dawn moved in her sleep, resting her hand… I can’t even say where she moved it but it shocked me even worse. I screamed and both women woke, Willow sitting up in bed to rub her eyes and mumble phrases like, “Tara? Wat’re you doin’ here?” and “What’s goin’ on?”
Fortunately for me, before I could collapse entirely, I heard Mr. Rayne’s step on the porch and he knocked at the door. I practically crawled through the door to him and felt his hands on my elbows lifting me to my feet and then nothing.
When I awoke, I was in this bed in Mrs. Wilkins’ lovely home for apparently I had swooned from the shock and exhaustion.
My Willow. How can she have done this? I would not believe it but I am hearing stories from all around the town. Mr. Rayne has been terribly concerned for my well-being and health and sadly reports rumors that while I was gone Willow has taken to spending time in the Saloon. Anya supplied her with alcohol, which she has always claimed to eschew, and there are rumors of what else she has been supplied.
Most terribly, Dawn Summers came to visit me yesterday. She was dressed for travel and told me she was about to leave on the coach for San Fransicso. She was quite tearful in telling me that she thought she could come home but her experience proves it is not to be so. She says that… that Willow was always at her. That at first she did not understand what Willow wanted but that as time went on and Willow became more demanding, she came to understand in the most base way. She prayed for my return as a way of freeing herself but pitied me all the same.
I know not who shed more tears in that meeting, Dawn or myself. The poor child.
She has gone now, returned to San Francisco for who knows what terrible life and scared from this wonderful and wholesome town by Willow’s desires.
Oh, Jenny. How can I have been so wrong? I always felt Willow was my true heart. That I could love and trust her until our judgment day? But now I can see how this was never so. When I arrived in Sunnydale I thought her the most innocent child I had ever known but she fooled me terribly.
My gratitude can not even be expressed to my hostess who sends up a tray of food three times a day – food which I push around on my plate without eating as I stare out the window to view the telegraph office where my fate was decided that day ten years ago now.
I do not know how to go on.
Yours,
Tara[/blockquote]
Mac stood up and paced the room. “When will that time-travel machine be invented because I’ve been working out and I’d like to go back in time and beat the ever living crap out of Ethan Rayne.” She paced a few more times. “And do we have the journal entry explaining Willow’s side of this? Did Dawn drug her or just crawl into bed with her as she was? What else do we know about it?”
Rose watched the blonde for a few minutes before standing and stepping in front of her and taking her hands. “It’s terrible.” She wiped a tear from the hieress’s eye. “I take it you’re sure Willow didn’t sleep with Dawn?”
Mac shook her head. “Hell no. Ethan Rayne arranged the whole thing. I mean he didn’t pay Dawn 10% of Sunnyland Farms for nothing and he set up the early coach. He probably set up her return to Sunnydale and everything. And now he’s just whispering in Tara’s ear lies about Willow.”
Rose nodded. “You’re probably right but it’s hard to prove any of it. Even I don’t have proof of everything he did.” She cupped her hands on the blonde’s jaw and then kissed her softly. “Have you read further?”
Mac shook her head. “I was up most of the night just reading and trying to assimilate it all to this point.”
Rose took her hand and pulled her toward the table. “Why don’t we read together or I can summarize the rest for you?”
Mac nodded. “Ok. But on one condition.”
Rose raised an eyebrow. “Let’s hear it.”
“Go with me to lunch. I have somewhere special I’d like to take you.”
Rose took a few seconds but then nodded. “Ok.”
They sat down and Rose pulled the mouse nearer herself. “Why don’t I summarize for you so we make some progress in the next…” she glanced at the clock… “2 or so hours? Unless we could take a late lunch?”
Mac nodded as if still somewhat in shock.
Rose skimmed the cursor over the many links of letters from Willow to Tara. “Now there’s no journal entry that even tells the story from Willow’s point of view. I don’t know if that’s because of the amount of time that goes by or because she’s busy standing on Cordeila’s porch or because she’s just too pissed to relive it. These all say pretty much the same thing but in decreasing levels of readability. It’s pretty apparent that as days go by she’s as heartbroken as Tara and she starts drinking in that age-old attempt to chase away her pain.”
Mac nodded. “Sure.”
Then she held her cursor over a series of links showing letters from Tara to Jenny Calendar. “That first letter is really the only time that Tara lets down her guard and tells Jenny anything detailed about either her relationship with Willow or why she’s left her. A few times she mentions hearing rumors about Willow but she says that she has given orders that she is not willing to see Willow and everyone around her allows her to maintain that.” She clicked on a letter from early July.
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Our independence day has come and gone but I can’t say that I felt fireworks or great happiness. I must prepare for teaching this fall and soon must return to my jelly hobby. Mr. Rayne has arranged the harvesting of my crops although I almost hate to think of that fruit which was planted by Willow making its way into any healthy person. I danced with no one at the celebration and everyone accepts my mourning for my father as the reason for the blackness of my mood.
Mr. Rayne, arrived early to escort me to the celebration and escort me back. While he danced a respectable number of turns with the women of the town he spent most of this time near me but silent, a quality I never knew how much I could appreciate until these past months.
Willow was…
She was at the celebration but I saw no signs of her drinking – a rumor I’ve heard repeatedly this summer.
Nor did she attempt to talk to me. Perhaps she was warned against making an unsightly commotion at such a happy occasion. I can say that numerous times I felt a prickle on my neck and when I looked up, she was glancing at me over a cup or between the bodies of two other dancers. Each time I fixed her with a stare that could not possibly encompass even 10% of my pain and hurt at her still and her gaze quickly moved elsewhere.
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Rose clicked another link. “Here’s Willow’s journal entry of that event:”
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Tara
Oh God. To see her and not be able to touch her, hold her, talk to her was torture. She has lost weight and looks plum tired. But she’s beautiful. As beautiful as any day ever. Even if I couldn’t touch her. Even if I could never hold her again. To talk to her. To hear her say my name. The way she says it is different from other folks. Like it’s hanging onto her tongue for extra long. I can hear it echoin’ in my ears as I work and sleep.
I wanted to dance with her at the dance but I got a message sent right down to leave her alone and not make no scene.
I know I could make her see how much I love her if only she’d talk to me…
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“I feel like my heart is breaking along with Willow’s,” Mac admitted. She looked at Rose in a puzzled way. “Does that seem strange?”
Rose held the blonde’s hand. “Which part?”
Mac motioned to herself. “I’m just not… I mean I’m not really much of a romantic. You might not be aware but I’m kind of a love ‘em and leave ‘em type.” She laughed as she spoke.
“I might have noticed that.” Rose laughed as well.
Mac nodded. “But even me. I mean if I found love like that. Hell, 25% of that, I’d never let it go no matter what crazy schemes evil old Ethan Rayne cooked up.”
Rose laughed and turned back to the computer. “Ok… so you’ve got the idea. Willow’s standing on the Mayor’s porch begging to see Tara and writing her a letter every day. Tara hides in her room and takes few visitors – one of whom is Ethan Rayne.” She clicked a link. “Let’s see. How about the beginning of August. Here’s an entry from Willow’s journal.”
[blockquote]August 10 no… August 12. Heck I wonder the day. I’m not sure it matters ‘cept for needin’ to pull in harvest. Harvest. What am I goin’ do with harvest? Ain’t Tara gonna can up my thousands of pounds of fruit this year. And who’s gonna pull harvest off her crops? I guess I’ll pull them and deliver them down the store? I guess I gotta go meet up with Uncle and arrange.
I never would have thought this. I’m going to meet with my Uncle to see what to do with my harvest while Tara sits up in Mrs. Mayor Wilkins house and doesn’t talk to me.
Gotta give credit to Faith goin’ over there yesterday to visit Tara. Course she got kicked out the second she mentioned me and now got tole don’t go back in there no more. Cordelia says it’s too hard for Tara in her “sensitive state.” Faith said she looks tired and sad and I don’t doubt it but I could fix it ifn’ she just let me come see her and explain it all down. [/blockquote]
Rose pointed at the document “then there’s a few pages here that I can’t decipher.”
[blockquote]… is done finally. All I can think is how does it matter? Cept I built it for Tara and she ain’t never even seen it. Ain’t never set a foot inside. It’s a beauty with everythin’ she could hope. I thought…
I thought…
I hate to say it but I know how she loves kids. And I heard theres lots that folks died and left or couldn’t afford. I thought we was goin’ have a big house full even though we didn’t talk on it ever. But I had my plan just like all of em.
Maybe if she’d see me, I can show her the house and how I set it up just for her and tell her about the kids and … [/blockquote]
Mac shook her head but said nothing as Rose clicked another link.
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August 22, 1881
Miss Calendar,
I must give you news and ask you a grand favor. As you know by addressing your letters, I am still at Mrs. Wilkins’ residence. I expected to return home in the next few months but Mr. Rayne has suggested another solution.
On our walk this Sunday past, for we’ve started to stroll among the trees for my health, he professed a grand love for me. He wished not to insult me but suggested that perhaps the idea of marrying him would not be too terrible for me. He said that while he did not expect me to love him in return, perhaps over time I would grow to this feeling.
I do not know what to do. I do not love him. That much is certain. Nor have I ever expected nor wanted to marry a man and grow into love. But perhaps he would be a man to grow to love. He is gentle and considerate and has been patient throughout this summer.
And I would stay in Sunnydale, a town I love so. And perhaps I would have children as you know I deeply desperately desire.
Please write me immediately.
Better yet, please take care to send mother’s wedding dress if you think this is an appropriate course of action. I shall try to come to a suitable decision before your next letter.
Confused,
Tara
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Rose looked up to see Mac crying and brushed the tears with her hand. “Just remember that you wouldn’t exist if she hadn’t married him.”
“Maybe that would be better?”
The redhead ran her fingertips along the other woman’s jaw. “No. It wouldn’t, Mac.”
[blockquote]September 17, 1881
Arrested. Arrested. How can I been arrested? I wasn’t even on Cordelia’s porch but across the whole street and she sent for Xander. I mean, yeah. Maybe I got kinda loud and punched Faith when she tried to drag me off but Xander din’t have to lock me in a cell for the day. And he didn’t let me out till the coach was gone the next day and Tara gone on it.
Tara gone on it.
And how I’m goin’ tell her how I love her and get her come back to me if she’s gone and married my uncle? She tole me so many times how she don’t care none for a man but maybe she changed her mind. Does she love him? How could he when he’s that … I can’t even think none for hurtin’ myself thinkin’ “what is she doin’ now?” and “now?” and “now?” Cause on a wedding trip with her I know what I’d be doin’ and it makes me sick on sick.
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“Then there’s about 5 pages written and crossed out,” Rose pointed to the pages with her hand and Mac nodded silently.
As Rose scrolled again, Mac watched the document numbers. “Where are Tara’s letters?”
Rose smiled. “See, you’re becoming a scholar. There are no more letters from Tara. I don’t know if they got separated from the others or if she simply stopped writing after her wedding.”
Mac shook her head.
[blockquote]December 10, 1881
Uncle Ethan come on over today. Said he heard I wasn’t doin’ that great and I spit at him like he deserves. Wouldn’t even tell me one single word about how is Tara. I ain’t seen her since she been back from their trip.
He hemmed and hawed around nothing for a while till I tole him I ain’t got no use for him sitting in house stinkin’ the place up and maybe he wants to get gone before I mistake him for a rabbit and grab my rifle.
Well he got right to it.
He wants the house. Says he’ll pay me fair for it.
Fair for it. I told him I didn’t build it to sell but for Tara.
That’s when he hits me with it. Well if I built it for Tara, don’t I want her and her children, my cousins, to get to live in it?
I know he seen me sit there with my mouth hangin’ open like a fool idiot. Tara goin’ have a baby and Ethan Rayne makin’ a point they’ll be my cousins. When he knows it shoulda been Tara’n me raisin kids together how we could.
It ain’t enough he got the love a my entire life married to him and won’t see me. And it ain’t enough he owns more land ‘round here ‘n anyone. And it ain’t enough him hirin’ my same builder boys for a big buildin’ of kitchens and shelves and I don’t know what else cause of goin’ out there in the dark a few nights and not gettin’ as good a look ‘round as I’d like. And big sign over the door says “Sunnyland Farms – purveyors of Jellies and Juices” or somethin’ like that.
Now he gotta have the best house this town ever seen or gonna see. And it not a mile from my place.
Well, I admit he caught me off with that Tara goin’ have a baby so I tole him go away and I’d think on it.
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Mac shook her head. “It’s a wonder Willow didn’t shoot him on sight. He’s taken pretty much everything she ever cared about and now he wants her to have to stay in her house and see Tara wandering around all pregnant for months.”
Rose shrugged again and patted Mac’s hand. “And again I say that if she had neither of us would be here.” She thought for a minute. “Actually, maybe you would be here since Ethan Jr. was first born but I doubt I would.”
Mac caught the redhead’s gaze for a long moment before nodding. “Then I am very very glad that Willow didn’t kill him.” Uncharacteristically she blushed and looked away as soon as the words were out of her mouth.
[blockquote]December 21, 1881
Ok. Deal done. I don’t think Uncle’s that happy on the bargain I struck but I still say he got the good part.
We met down at the Saloon cause I didn’t want to be tempted shootin’ him. He says his lawyers will give me the papers which they gotta make all legal and such. And I signed over the title to him. He gets Tara’s house plus 60 of the 140 acres I bought around it.
I get… 15% of his company. He asked me why I want it and I tole him I ain’t so stupid as everyone thinks all the time. He’s a snake but he’s a snake with a plan. And now our families is tied together again. He gets richer. I get richer.
Plus now I gotta reason for sellin’ my fruit to him again.
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I din’t tell him part of it. Which is Tara’s bedroom gonna overlook my cabin. She looks out her window she’ll see me or the cabin where I loved her and still do. And maybe I can catch a look of her somedays. Maybe walkin near them borderin’ trees and see’in her walkin’. …
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“Can you read that again?”
Rose did and then waited for Mac to speak. “She sold him the house and land for 15% of Sunnyland Farms?” Rose nodded. “That’s a pretty big share. I think I’d know if you were a major stockholder in my company.”
Rose laughed and clapped her hands together. “And the prize goes to Maclay Willingham. You certainly would. But I’m not.”
Mac narrowed her eyes. “Why not? I mean what happened to the stake in the company?”
“No one knows.” Rose explained. “No paper work was ever found. Willow told Xander and Faith about the deal and she said she had the documents. But years later when Faith tried to get payment for Willow’s son’s share, Ethan Rayne denied the whole thing. He said he had never given any such share to Willow Rosenberg and why would he?” She wiped her eyes. “I bet you never knew that when my great-grandfather first tried to get his due, Willow’s journal was brought into court.”
“Willow’s journal? Why?”
Rose picked up the first journal from the table and read:
[blockquote] “It’s light.” I nodded. She unwrapped the ribbon and opened the lid and I think maybe it took her a second to realize what I done give her. Then she was smilin’ when she pulled that little stick that I whittled out of the box and slowly read the flag on it. “Rosenberg-Maclay.” I meant it too. That flag ain’t got no reason to just say Rosenberg no more cause she belongs here as long as she’ll stay. [/blockquote]
“That entry was signed and dated at the bottom by Willow Rosenberg. The courts agreed with Ethan Rayne Jr. that it was a valid deed and awarded half of the Rosenberg acerage to Sunnyland Farms as the legal beneficiaries to Tara Maclay Rayne’s estate. They did stop short of granting ½ ownership in the cabin to your family, however.”
Mac reached out and took Rose’s hand again. “Rose, I’m … I’m so sorry for all this. I … I don’t even know how to justify what’s been done.”
Rose sniffed and then shrugged. “I’m still going to find that paperwork and then …”
Mac nodded and looked at the redhead with a smile. “Your holy grail.”
Rose reached out and took the mouse again. “Ok. Then we have a year or two of journal entries from Willow ranging from details about crop rotation and yield and bank account details to borderline stalking. Here’s one from May 1882:”
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I’m pretty sure she had the baby though cause I seen her a few times last month. I know she supposed to be in confinement and all but I know that Tara Maclay pretty good and her ain’t gonna just set around knitting booties ever day. Plus my tree climbin’ always been darned good.
Buffy been pregnant a whole buncha times now and she always just looks tired and wore down. But not Tara. Tara looks …
She glows. She’s gorgeous. When she walks in that garden, she rubs her stomach the whole time and her mouth always movin’, probably singin’ to the baby in that voice she got that always turned my heart to more butter. Once, I moved and heard a branch snap and she looked my way. I don’t know she saw me though cause that tree’s full of leaves and I was pretty well hidden up.
But I been up there and ain’t seen her in two weeks or more. So maybe Tara’s a mama and I’m a cousin. I don’t even know if it’s a boy or girl baby. I know she wanted a girl baby so maybe she got that.
Damn. I sure hope that baby looks like her more’n Uncle cause she’s still the most beautiful woman ever been and he’s still a nasty snake.
I wonder if I sent over a present for my new cousin, she send it right back like all them letters. Maybe a bonnet or dress and when she puts her in it, she thinks of me.
She gonna love those raspberry and black berry bushes come a few years on now. She just step out the back door and pick a few thousand for breakfast. Berries for breakfast, berries for lunch, and berries for dinner.
I…
Shoot. I didn’t get caught but I snuck over there and checked on them. The soil just right and leaves perfect.
I wonder when she’ll start her walkin’ again…[/blockquote]
“By June, Willow knows that the baby was a boy and that he’s named for his father. Finally she sends an outfit she ordered and is ecstatic when Tara doesn’t return it.” Mac nodded as Rose continued her narration. “Willow continues drinking but she doesn’t seem to be a drunk, contrary to Riley Finn’s implication in the article about her death. She seems quite settled into it, sitting at the saloon with Faith and quietly writing in her journal.”
Rose clicked anther link to show Mac some sketches Willow had apparently begun to make depicting town life and evenings in the Saloon. Pointing her finger at a column of numbers and letters she smiled. “If my guesses are correct, these are actually complete recollections of poker hands and money won or lost on each.”
Mac whistled through her teeth. “Holy shit. She memorized the cards each player played in each hand of the game, then wrote it all down with bets won and lost? She’s … I mean she’s not quite a dumb hick country girl.”
Rose laughed again. “Not quite.”
“Where did the money go then? Was it in the bank and used for raising her son?”
“I just don’t know, Mac.” Rose wiped at her eyes. “I’m pretty sure a few nights of her winnings in today’s dollars would pay off my school loans.”
Mac for a wild moment Mac wanted to say that she would pay off Rose’s school loans. How much could it possibly be? $20,000? $30,000? It would be nothing to the heiress. But… how would that come across? It wasn’t like you could just hand thousands of dollars to a woman you wanted to… wanted to… Oh shit.
What do I want to do with her? Sleep with her? Well, yes. Of course. But … Ok, I’m not going to think about that.She quickly focused her thoughts back on the story.
Rose recovered from her moments of financial emotionality and continued describing the journals. “Ok, we’ve got a few years of very very well documented card games, crop rotation, and financial growth.” Mac nodded. “Also, she’s watching Tara again. She regularly climbs the trees and watches her former lover strolling in the gardens, holding the Ethan Jr., eating berries. Whenever she thinks she sees the drapes in Tara’s bedroom move it’s worth at least a few pages in her journal of wondering if Tara is watching her and if she remember their time in the cabin.” Rose looked up and smiled. “She really is kind of a stalker.”
“But a sweet one.”
“Yes, a sweet one.” Rose continued. “When she realizes from her stalking that Tara is pregnant again, she takes it hard for a few days. In fact, she gets drunk and Xander has to lock her up again when she starts a fight with a few cowboys much bigger than her.”
“At least she’s showing some backbone.”
Rose shrugged. “Then in late 1882, there’s a telling journal entry:”
[blockquote]…
Who shoulda come in through that saloon door but Danny? He come in lookin’ for Anya. Maybe she needs a piano player which actually she does and seen me sittin’ at the bar, looked shocked. He come over and looked all hangdog like he can’t believe he ain’t seen me in so long which you courtin’ a girl and go off to conquer your demons and gone more’n twelve years, you might want to reconsider some things. Him ‘n Faith shake and she pour him a drink and he set right down there, wants to hear about Sunnydale.
Well, I was a bit into that particular cup but I let him buy me another. Tole him some about the town and now Sunnyland Farms but I didn’t tell him none about Tara cause that’s not his to know. I seen Faith watchin’ kinda funny but she has her hands full on account a’ this one girl of Anya’s seen her comin’ outa another girl’s room and I guess she ain’t none too happy and … well, you can imagine. Or maybe can’t. Ever once in a while Faith suggests I support Anya’s business myself cause she says maybe I’d lighten up but I ain’t no way interested in such and I tole her which brings up a chuckle.
Danny and I set there all that night and he tole bout a whole bunch a travelin’ and playin’ and people he met and things he saw and I tole him ‘bout I planted and planted and ‘bout goin’ up to San Francisco when I done that and it was real nice. I can’t tell if this is just a stop on his journey or he thinkin’ he’s home and I don’t guess it matter to me.
…
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“Then there’s some details on her night in poker.” She looked up at Mac with a smile. “It was not a good night. Perhaps because of the being into that first cup and Danny buying more.”
Mac pursed her lips. “Why am I thinking that Willow’s son is named for his father?”
Rose tapped the blonde on the nose again, then leaned in to kiss the spot.
[blockquote]November 10, 1882
...
Danny come out to the house for some dinner. He ended up stayin’ a bit longer over and all. I … well, it done now. I can see what Tara meant all them years ago ‘bout how she never wanted to marry no man. Course see where that got her cause she’s married and now goin’ have my second damn cousin.
Maybe it gets better after a bit. I mean… with Tara it wasn’t… Oh Heck. Yes it was. I didn’t know nothin’ and was a bumblin’ idiot but it was just… amazing ever time includin’ that first one. But maybe this gonna be gettin’ better.
…
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Mac laughed. “Yeah, it doesn’t get better.”
Rose looked at her with a smile. “I wouldn’t honestly know.”
“Really? How wonderful for you.”
Mac shook her head and pointed a finger at her chest. “Mix one part tequila, one part party girl, and one part poor judgment and you have an experience I’d rather forget.”
Rose smiled again. “Ok, so entries like this go on for a few months or so. Willow and Danny drink together and I can’t tell if she’s told him about Tara. In the meantime, she’s watching Tara with the Ethan Jr. and totally in love with Tara being pregnant again. Her interactions with her uncle are about harvest and income and supplies.” Mac nodded. “Then …
[blockquote]January 1, 1883
Danny wasn’t no where I seen when I got up this mornin. I figured he’d be down at the salloon but he wasn’t. I come back up here and find a note on my door but no Danny.
…
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Rose clicked the appropriate link:
[blockquote]December 31, 1882
Willow.
I wish it was different but it ain’t. You and me… I don’t think we mix. I can tell you need somethin’ that I don’t have. Somethin’ maybe you don’t know.
I love you. Always did and always will. I think I come back for you but it never occurred to me how hard it would be if I had you but didn’t have you too and I can’t live like that. Don’t look for me or try to find me. I’m going to move on and find … that something with someone someday. I hope you do too.
I paid Faith for you a drink so here’s to 1883 bein’ the best year you ever had.
Yours,
Daniel Osborne[/blockquote]
“That’s kind of sad,” Mac said as she read the note.
Rose shrugged again. “Sure, but it’s kind of how love seems to go. I mean Willow’s pining after Tara still and Danny still loves Willow and we don’t know how Tara feels but no one’s happy.”
Mac practically spit her reply. “Perhaps Ethan Rayne.”
“Perhaps.”
[blockquote]February 24, 1883
…
Thing is. Danny gone but I don’t think he’s quite so gone. I ain’t sure what to do now. Do I go in and see Doc Giles? And is he gonna tell me I can’t plant in my fields this Spring cause I need to do my plantin? I ain’t gonna go into no confinement hidin’ like some lady that lives in a big house.
Maybe I go on down to see bout what Buffy says cause she sure knows with that whole messa’ kids down on there. I ain’t sure on that cause between me and Dawn stuff and Dawn done run off agin’ and then Riley didn’t never like Danny … maybe I won’t go see Buffy bout it. Ain’t gonna go talk to Faith cause she laugh and laugh her fool head right off.
…
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“Now we know where Danny came from and why his last name stayed Rosenberg.” Mac pointed at the latest entry. “So no one in Sunnydale thought anything about an unmarried woman having a baby?”
Rose shrugged and Mac smiled thinking how much she liked that motion. It was something the redhead did a few hundred times a day and it seemed cuter every time. “I don’t think it was something that nice girls did but the fact was that Willow owned her own home and land and worked for herself. She really didn’t have to answer to anyone.” She shrugged again. “Plus, she’d been on the outside of society for quite a while.”
“I can see that.” Mac looked at the links. “So Tara’s pregnant for the second time and Willow’s pregnant as well. Does Tara know?”
“Excellent question.” Rose glanced at the clock. “We’re already late for our lunch date.” Mac realized she liked very much the way the redhead said the word
date. “Willow cleans up her act quite a bit after she visits with Doc Giles. He doesn’t admonish her but seems genuinely excited and after Faith gives her a lot of shit, she gets pretty excited too. She’s especially excited when Willow tells her she’ll be the baby’s godmother. Anyway, Willow stops going to the saloon as often and cuts down on her poker playing. She DOES NOT sit at home and make booties or anything like that.”
Mac laughed. “Well, she didn’t change who she was, right?”
[blockquote]June 10, 1883
I think I see why Tara always walkin’ in the garden rubbin’ her stomach. There’s a durn person in there. A real person and he just depends on me for anythin’. Or hers depends on her too. She’s so beautiful all like that. I can put my palm on the side and feel it just moving around in there.
Only thing is I can’t climb no trees no more. And I thought I could hide a little better but the other day I was out walkin’ the fence line lookin’ for Tara. I figure pretty soon she won’t be out no more but she was and I was leanin’ by this tree and her boy turned and run this way and that, laughin’ and she turned and seen me standing there. I didn’t know if she was gonna call up that man that works down there or maybe yell someone to get Uncle but she just straightened up and looked at me for about the longest time. Then she looked down and she can’t help but see my stomach, right? I mean it don’t stick out none like hers but it sticks out and she just stared at it and stared and stared. I felt like without about 80 feet and a fence between us, I coulda just reached out my hand to hers and put in on there to feel the baby. Her boy, Jr. and what picked just that moment to run into her knees and she ‘bout fell over but she straightened up and then they went back to playin’.
What I don’t understand is she knows I come see her. She don’t send me off but she don’t come no closer neither. What if I came closer?
…
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“Did she ever try?”
Shrug. “Not that she says.” Rose clicked again.
[blockquote]August 13, 1883
I tried to apologize to Buffy about some of those words but she laughed. She said it happens. I didn’t imagine it felt none like that. Like I was splitin right in two. Tara done that twice and Buffy five times? Why would anyone do that more’n once?
Of course. I know why. Cause this little boy is just… as perfect as he can be. He got all this redhair so if we ever get separated I can find him right off and him me too. I counted his fingers and toes about 200 times now and 10 of each just like it’s supposed to be. And I made Faith check him too and she says he’s perfect.
Him eatin’ ain’t the most easiest thing I ever tried but Buffy tole Riley watch that mess of theirs and brought just one with her and over here helpin’ me for how to feed him and clean his mess and general being good friend.
I’m so darned tired. Maybe I’ll just finish this up lat…
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Mac smiled as Rose read. “That’s so adorable.” She looked at the other girl who had a dreamy look on her face. “What about you? Is that something you think about?”
Rose laughed. “What getting knocked up by an ex who leaves town before he knows that he’s going to be a daddy?”
Mac smiled again. “I think there are some other methods these days that don’t necessarily involve the exes. Especially since you said you don’t have any exes around.”
Rose smiled as well. “I didn’t say I didn’t have any exes. I don’t have any ex-boyfriends.”
Mac grinned. “Even better.”
Rose glanced again at the clock. “Honestly, there’s not a lot more that’s crucial to the story here. Years go by. Willow loves being a mother and she spends every moment she can with Danny. Faith is a really good god-mother and Xander spends a lot of time around. Tara has another child, her third, in 1885. By that time, Willow and she have fallen into a pattern of watching each other over their land boundary a few times a week but they never speak.”
“That’s fucking tragic.”
Rose shook her head. “Sweetheart, the entire thing is fucking tragic as you’ve so eloquently summed it up.” When Mac didn’t ask a question Rose continued. “Ethan is gone to San Francisco or LA more and more often. He’s obviously also making a great deal of money as Willow reports her profits from the business.” Rose scanned over the remaining links. “A lot of these are tax and land records.”
She clicked on a link Mac recognized as being from April, 1887.
[blockquote]April 7, 1887
I think I thought of everythin’. But I just don’t know. Faith said she can come over and be with Danny. I can’t take no chance on him. It just… I just don’t know.
I hope a week from now it’s very different.
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“That’s her last journal entry.” Rose closed the laptop as she said it.
“That’s it? What? That doesn’t tell us anything. Why did she go break into Ethan Rayne’s house? Did she and Tara ever talk? What happened?” Mac stood and started to pace as she asked questions. “That tells us nothing!”
Rose shrugged. “It tells us that she was planning something big.”
“That’s nothing.” Mac continued pacing, nudging a chair out of her path with her toe until Rose got up and crossed the floor to stand in front of her.
The redhead slowly wrapped her hands around Mac’s back and wound one in her hair, whispering, “Ok, Maclay Willingham. You’ve played my research game. Why don’t we go play yours?”
From the ensuing kiss, Mac thought maybe they were going to play her game right there on the floor of the library. She felt shocked herself when she pulled away as the other woman began pulling at the hem of her shirt.
“Uh… am I reading something wrong here?”
Mac looked at the incredibly adorable but confused look on the redhead’s face. “You’re really not. But I … I really do have somewhere I want to take you for lunch.”
“Seriously?”
Mac laughed. “Oh God. My reputation as a complete slut precedes me.”
Rose laughed as well. “Well, yes. It kind of does you know.”
Mac leaned in for another kiss. “I can assure you that my reputation is well deserved and … I’d like to continue to deserve it. But …”
“Plans?”
“Right.”
Rose picked up her backpack and slung it over her shoulder. “Well, then.”
A few minutes later, Rose watched Mac from the passenger seat of her expensive car. “Can I ask where we’re going?”
Mac shook her head. “I think you’ll recognize it when we get there.” Rose smiled and Mac lifted her hand to kiss the fingertips. “So is that all there is to the story?”
Rose took a breath. “I have another 100+ years of documents. How the town grew. How Ethan Rayne’s fortune expands and becomes this car and your clothes and a few million other dollars. How The Rosenberg family loses their fortune and slowly but surely sells their land to Sunnyland Farms finally retaining only Willow’s cabin.”
Mac glanced across, surprised to see the impassive look on Rose’s face. “I’m really sorry.”
Rose shrugged. “Oh, one other interesting note. About four months after Tara Maclay’s death, Dawn Summers showed up in Sunnydale again.”
“How dare she show her face?” The blonde’s knuckles turned white as she gripped the steering wheel.
Rose laughed. “Well, she didn’t stay long. Just long enough to drop her daughter, Emily and son, Evan off with Ethan Rayne.”
Mac turned and looked at Rose. “You’re fucking kidding me. How old were they?”
Rose laughed again. “Thirteen and twelve.”
Mac thought about it for a minute. “Ok, so let’s say Dawn was 6 years younger than Willow. Is that reasonable?”
Rose nodded.
“Then she would have been about 14 when the first was born. Do you think they were Ethan Rayne’s children?”
Rose shrugged again. “Well, Ethan Jr. denied it when his alleged half-brother and sister attempted to get their share of Sunnyland Farms and the courts took his side. I guess a DNA check now would pretty much show whether they were in fact Ethan’s children. But it certainly explains why Dawn left town in shame and why she and Ethan stayed in such good touch.”
Mac shook her head. “And what became of her?”
“She was knifed and killed in a bar in St. Louis a few years later. Her body was buried there and the kids each inherited 5% of Sunnyland Farms. I can show you their family tree later if you care to see it.”
Mac shook her head. “It’s hard to really express how much hatred I feel for my great-great-grandfather.”
She pulled up to a gate and waited as a guard came up to her window which she lowered. “Ms. Willingham. We’ve shut the property for the day and everything is as you requested.”
“Thanks,” she glanced at his name tag, “George.”
He stepped back and she drove up the dirt path to the Rosenberg/Jennings family home.